Worship At Home
Small Group Reflection of 08-23-20
In these days of social distancing we have endeavored to provide a Corpus Christi online worship experience. The Worship At Home web page has been our attempt to provide that. One of the ways our community has used this resource has been to gather virtually in real time using video conferencing software like FaceTime, Skype, Messenger, and Zoom. In an effort to hold onto our deep liturgical roots, one virtual group has gone to the point of having rotating presiders, lectors, and even homilists. The reflections provided by the members of this group have often been very inspiring. In an effort to share these reflections with the larger community several of them have been collected and published here on the CC website.
Reflection from 08-23-20, provided by Kathy DiGiorno.
When it became clear that I was going to be offering the reflection today, I spent some time immersed in the readings, and reviewing secondary sources. I started a reflection focused on the last verse of the Gospel, where Jesus “strictly ordered his disciples to tell no one he was the Christ” and how every single one of us needs to come to know Jesus directly and personally, and how Jesus and the disciples built their relationship–and the community—on trust.
But I found that my heart was leading me a different direction, and decided to share with you today how current events have impacted my faith. I want to recognize on the front end my privilege and the fact that I have not experienced job loss or economic insecurity or food insecurity like so many people in our community and across the globe. That said, my life has been changed and my faith has been impacted.
Just think, in a couple of weeks it will be six months of COVID-19 isolation. It has been three months since George Floyd’s murder. Sit with that for minute.
A level of uncertainty has been introduced into our lives that, at least for me, is astonishing.
While the days are happening, they seem more or less normal. I get up, make coffee, work, spend time on the computer and on the phone with Medtronic colleagues, eat, keep up with the news, read, exercise, watch Netflix, and go to sleep. Vinny and I participate in our marriage fellowship group and in our various volunteer activities, talk to far flung kids on the phone, work in the garden, maybe see our son John, who lives in the North Loop, etc.
When I step back and think about the last six months, though, it is jarring. I know everyone’s experience has been different, but for me I haven’t set foot in my Medtronic office. Or flown on a plane. Or eaten in a restaurant. Or gone into a grocery store or Target. Or hosted a party. Or hugged anyone outside my immediate family. I have missed weddings and funerals, graduations, senior concerts and sports seasons, and we elected to send our youngest off to college with her sisters rather than taking her ourselves because the risk was less. Like many of you, I haven’t entered a church building or received the Eucharist. For almost six months.
Those of you who know me well—that’s a lot of you—know that I do not typically shy away from complexity. I have a great deal of confidence that we can accomplish amazing things through hard work and appropriate utilization of resources, and I’m not afraid to deploy my whole self to make things happen. I have a big appetite to delve into Church doctrine to learn about various positions, read church documents, worry about understanding the ins and outs of what I’ve taken to calling “Big C Catholicism.”
In preparing to share with you this morning, I realized that the events of the past six months have changed me and changed my faith. I feel like I have been steeped in God’s love and in Jesus’ humanity in a way that is new and different for me. Things that used to matter a lot to me just don’t anymore. I think I am more accepting and less sanctimonious. I have very little appetite for rules and doctrine and history and more appetite for lived experience and figuring out how to be the love of Jesus to other people.
This zoom house church experience has been important for me. Being together with all of you, hearing your wisdom, praying with you, has grounded me and given me hope. I have learned so much.
Many, many times in the past six months, in the midst of all the uncertainty, I have found myself filled with joy and peace and able to trust in God in ways that have surprised me. I have been, in the language of Romans chapter 15, “overflowing with confident hope through the power of the Holy spirit.”
To close, I want to go back to the reflection on the Holy Spirit that I offered on May 17th and close with a quote I have gone back to many times: “The Holy Spirit is God-present-with-us, in the here and now, transforming us and growing us so that we can be a blessing to others and to the world. Someone once described the Holy Spirit as ‘the Present Tense of God’: not the God of history, not the God of the future, but the God of the here and now, active in the world and active in our lives. The Holy Spirit is the one who helps us experience God on a day-to-day basis, the one who gives us faith, the one who sustains us, the one who keeps us in the presence of God every moment of every day.”
I know that my faith will continue to grow and change as I journey with all of you. I will likely once again develop an appetite for intellectual argument around theological topics. I am grateful for this moment in my faith journey, though, and believe it will sustain me over time.
Come Holy Spirit. Be with us. Thanks be to God.